Points of Light, as with every day, I passed through yesterday where many people had a chance to see me as a point of light full of beautiful colors, and for this, I choose to believe some of these people were made happy. Time and space happens, so does light - and no matter how fractured, faint, or thin the beam, colors fill that light, and with lights color, beauty if chosen, can flood the senses. A life lived is a complex matter as the heart chooses one thing over the other and sometimes choices become hard to make. As we breathe and move through our place in time and space, we are blessed with points of light continually greeting us. That's when lives lived get to choose from a palette of colors to either find beauty and happiness or, find colors that refuse to coalesce into anything we long to gaze upon.
Please take in this truth, sometimes from the brilliant lights that stream into our consciousness, we get to find awesome beauty in just the right colors. In these brilliant lights, sometimes we can't help but to have our gaze linger past the welcome. So, it's been with me. She's informed me that it's time for me to look away from her. Still, I can't be sad! Why? Because even though this moment and those that follow will no longer afford me the fortuity to look into the presence of her colorful light, she's already filled my heart with bright vivid colors and these colors continue to coalesce into thoughts as meditations of wondrous beauty.
So, the question is begging to be answered - "Tod, why did her welcome end?" That's a question whose beautiful answer can be found in what her heart gave me. It was in part, due to the beautiful colors of her light that my heart was recently able to write this, "I’m a substantial man because I contain a bright light whose color and beauty can’t be contained. Will you allow me to back up for a brief moment? As time and space moved, just when I needed them, the soaring love, light, color, and beauty from several women’s hearts came along beside me and with their help, I gave up gravity for grace. Today I work hard to find all the light I have in my heart, with all this light, I see all the colors I possess, and I accept that Mr. Tod Thomas Price is a beautiful man."
I hear you saying, "Tod if that's the case, most people would choose to look at a light so full of beautiful colors. It sounds like it should have continued both ways. So, I still fail to see why her welcome ended." Well, the answer is life lived is wonderful and people are complicated; but let me suggest so much of her light can be found in her intelligence - and in her intelligence, she needs to find unchanging, immutable logic. I choose to believe in this kind of light she chooses to find colors that bring beauty and happiness into her life. "Tod...." - Patience Please, I'm getting there. My brother once quoted Winston Churchill to give a certain flavor of color to my existence, my brother said of me that "I'm a riddle, wrapped in a mystery, inside an enigma." I say simply, "Please don't try to pin me down... unless you're about to die because you've learned how to pin down mercury!" It's in my brother's statement that I find the truth, honesty, sincerity, and authenticity to be the bright light people see in me.
But it was my lingering gaze into her brilliant light that I found the precise colors to really see and accept ALL OF MY BEAUTY, the beauty that my brother suggested I see in myself. So, in the virtual space in which I found her and have known her, even with all her light, she hasn't the time to allow her intelligence to decipher all the beauty in the colors of my bright mysterious light, and in this, the welcome ended...for now. But, my heart can smile knowing in me she saw a bright light in the form of a riddle, wrapped in a mystery, inside an enigma - and in the real world she really occupies, even as she continues to breathe and move through her path of time and space, from time to time I'll cross her mind and I know her intelligence will continue to try and find something immutable at the center of me, the riddle, the mystery, the enigma.
As Always,
With Content Love and Amazing Peace.
Tod w/only one d
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