Points of Light, when I feel her skin, when she freely and honestly gives all the warmth of her precious body to only me, I have no words left. I so much want to find those words that describe to you what it is I feel when her happiness lies in how she can completely forget about herself when we love one another. Oh, you have to know this, it's very important that I don't forget to tell you how it's she that's experienced so many ups and downs lately. In a short period of time that played heavily on her body, heart, and emotions. You see, it's she who's body failed her just long enough to cruelly betray her when it convinced her everything was fine, only then to turn back around and fail her again - not once, not twice, but on three different occasions in the short distance of one month that would become long and wearisome to her. I've been there by her side, wanting her health's permanent return, wanting her better, waiting for her heart to smile because her body had become whole again - once and for all, making her life right. Still, no one, not even me, desired that more than she.
How do I tell you how beautiful she is? Are there those words, do they exist? Her beauty floors me with every smile that lights up her face. When literally from A - Z, she finds a word from each one of the 26 alphabets to tell me of all the reasons why I'm the great man she loves with all her heart, well, I'm not sure how to tell you how beautiful she looks as I get to watch her recite those 26 words to me; I can only say that while I'm befuddled and astounded, I'm amazed that the most beautiful woman in the universe loves me! When she suggests that at our wedding, in lieu of gifts people should donate to the Tri-State Food Bank, all I know is that it was her beauty suggesting this. When we're in bed at night and both of us are fast asleep, and when I get to hear her dog "whine" at her up to three times during these nights because he needs to go outside for his doggie reasons, and when I know she drags herself out of bed because her heart can't stop loving her dogs no matter how sleepy she is, what are the words that can rightly tell you of all her beauty? When I stand in front of this 61-year-old woman with my hands on her hips, staring into her eyes, and I get to see a happy 20-something young woman smiling back at me, how do I describe to you how beautiful she is? Anyway, damn, she's so very, so extremely beautiful.
This is the beautiful woman that has recently had health problems teasing her body, her mind, and her emotions. This is the woman who wanted to love me and for some reason thought she wasn't, because of... well beauty. Then yesterday, she came to me all happy and so very excited, she smiled that famous smile I told you about, threw her arms around my back then slowly moved them up to put them on my shoulders. As she looked into my eyes, like the sun, her face was glowing as she said in her best happy voice, "I'm doing so well that if this keeps up, I can give myself to you very soon!" Do you want to know something? No one has ever said anything to me that sounded so sweet as what she said to me right then and there. I can even say I've never known or felt sweetness before she said that to me. In that moment, I could only feel one thing, her sweet love she had for me and me alone; her desire to show me she loved me and to give me her love; and in that moment, I'd never been more overwhelmed in gladness as my heart smiled bigger than ever it smiled.
Still, and more than ever really - if that's possible, I need her to get better, healthier, and to become whole in her body, heart, and mind. She deserves nothing but the very best, I mean all the best that she lavishes out to everyone who enters her orbit, that's the kind of best that she also deserves. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you how her quick mind says intelligent funny things that make me laugh all day long, that's so much of her beauty and I want to keep laughing with her for a very long time. Please get better my love. You're the best of the best and you've been in my heart long before I first laid my eyes on you.
As always,
With Love and Peace on My Heart,
Tod /only one d
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