Points of Light, a life lived can always be stagnate and static. Said another way - it can always stay in one place and never move away from a state of being that's drab, dreary, and chocked full of aching dullness . Points Of Light, I chose to live in that state of being most of my life, and the answer is, “No, I wasn’t happy, but neither was I un-happy - I just existed.” The funny thing is how when I used to live life as a wisp of smoke - where I un-righteously felt I never mattered to any one (including myself) - my uneventful, state of being as a bland and prosaic plebeian seemed a right fit for me, and it seemed a state of being wherein I ought to stay and to be a place from where I should never stray.
That was me, a point in space without time, fighting an impossible fight against the reality of Einstein. But despite all the gravity that tethered me still and immobile, I never seized thinking thoughts as I always struggled to understand my life, and where, as a point in space, I fit into a bigger universe. As I thought my thoughts, I observed. This is how I discovered my friend’s real name, and what a name she revealed to me. Points Of Light, her name is Terpsichore. She is a point in time and space who has always accepted E=MC2, and all I can say is wow-wee!
She came into my life when I needed a sign - no matter how imperceptible that sign might have been - that time marched on, that is to say, that as a point in space I could also exist in time. Terpsichore did only what Terpsichore does, she danced to beautiful music, and while she played her beautiful music and danced for me, I “saw her to be as bright as the sun and as multifaceted as the best cut, flawless diamond.” She made “epic colors of light—violet, blue, green, yellow, orange, gold, and red—dance, pop, and zip in ways that brought glorious ecstasy to my mind and plunged the deepest depths of my heart.” Then, as I “was experiencing the complete fullness of this rapture”, this was when I first began to experience time and move; this was when I first gave up the fight against Einstein's reality. This was when my life lived occupied both a point in space while my life lived moved through space as I experienced time. You see, this was when I decided to no longer live life in a state of being static.
Since then, my life lived has moved a great deal through time and space. Like at no other time in my life, I am finally happy! In being happy, I am also content, but I am content in a new and better way – I am content to never stop, and to never quench my deep desire to think thoughts that compel me to always want to continuously move through time and space learning and growing. Points Of Light, as I move through time and space, I choose to find as much light as I can. From this light I choose to discover all its colors, and with these colors, well, I always choose to find beauty in my life lived.
In this progressive state of being I find myself in, I get to think my thoughts and observe. As I do this, I find others encouraging me on my journey. Someone has sung to me her words and as I listen, my thinking thoughts know they contain a sincere truth. Here are some highlights…
· When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
· I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance.
· Never settle for the path of least resistance.
· Loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making.
· When you come close to selling out, reconsider.
· Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along. Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder, where those years have gone.
Points Of Light, life always gives us choices. Not awfully long ago, I chose to stay forever stuck in the muck of the constant, stagnancy of being passively locked and forever still. But I’ve thought thoughts, I’ve changed, I’ve learned and I’ve grown. I made a choice to dance when I asked Angela to marry me. Together, we experience time as we move in a dance where we find our togetherness makes the other person bigger, stronger, and so much better than we ever where alone. Together, rather than choosing the path of least resistance, we're constantly choosing to dance.
Just a few days ago, we had a long discussion on the phone. The conversation was a session of talking and listening because we both wanted and needed to say something as much as we both wanted to be heard and listened to. Light, the light found in our love - the one for the other - allowed both of us to understand and absorb all the colors the other wanted us to see and feel. Would you be interested in knowing the effect all these colors had on us? We were able to find the beauty we needed in the other to paint a picture. The picture we painted together was so much better than one of us would have ever been able to create alone! In the end, I asked Angela if she wanted to dance. Her answer was yes, and she truly desired we danced right now. We went to Georgia.
As Always,
Love and Peace,
Tod w/ only one d
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